• Yoga chose me, as a path to heal and expand beyond what I thought was possible.

    In 1997 began my initial investigation into yoga with a focus on Jnana Yoga. In 1999 I meet my first teacher, a Vietnamese Buddhist monk, who introduced me to meditation, and at this time I began devotional worship to Kuan Yin (who is much like goddess Bhuvaneshwari of the Indian pantheon), a goddess of compassion and mercy, and more.

    Then in 2006 I turned to Hatha Yoga for help, while on an extended art/medicinal plant exploration/surf trip through the Americas which for me evolved into a "Yoga & Naturopathy on the Road" journey. At the time, it was painful for me just to lift my head backwards a little, as I was suffering from sever functional scoliosis. Brought on by a challenging childhood, a late-in-life diagnosis of gluten intolerance, and hard work and play.

    After many dedicated years of yoga practice, continually seeking balance I can now say I'm healed. Yoga saved my life and has given me life. As before I committed to a serious and 108% dedicated practice, I lived with severe pain and numbness and had begun to fall to the ground unexpectedly while walking I was so out of alignment, in addition to experiencing regular bouts of anxiety, insomnia and fear.

    Today, doors beyond the postures have been reveal and a journey of the spirit has unfolded. I feel expansive and I'm here to serve and guide you to help you heal, recover and discover your best-self, and expand beyond what you think is possible for yourself.

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  • Kundalini Awakening

    "Generally speaking, one should keep secret the divine experiences with which one is blessed by God, but here I want to describe some of them for the benefit of seekers."

    ~ Swami Muktananda, author of Play of Consciousness and my teacher Sally Kempton's longtime guru

    I share this story because the reality is one can heal and unfold in unimaginable ways through yogic teachings and practices, as my story will attest here. The cosmic serpent, Kundalini, in you is real and when She chooses She will reveal Herself to you. My wish for the overall health of the planet and all sentient beings is She decides to awaken to all of us. As She radically aids in our process of internal purification, revealing universal truths, bestowing and unveiling endless gifts. She is teacher and guides as a all powerful personal guru. Also, She is the divine feminine and once awakened one's love of and for the feminine knows no bounds and the call to serve Her, I've experienced as a thunder lightening bolt. The more awake and realized each of us are the more enabled we are to positively care for ourselves, our families, our communities, our planet. 

    The Uncoiling...

    In October of 2011 I was strongly drawn to a week-long Kum Nye (Tibetan Yoga) retreat lead by Rita Toledo from the Nyingma Institute of Sao Paulo, Brazil, a line of yoga I’d yet to explore, but was curious about. On the full moon, four days into the retreat, during the morning practice doing a daily posture sequence called "The Four Directions", I suddenly felt surging electrical energy in both my feet, ankles and lower calves. It was an intense surging up and down energy as if I was plugged into not just a light socket, but a universal electrical grid. Up and down, up and down, the energy coursed. In between sequences I mentioned this to Rita, and she advised me to bend my knees when coming up from the forward bend posture in the sequence. So in the next round I did just that, and the energy shot up my legs, torso, and raced up my arms and out my raised hands – pulling me skyward, the energy rushing, coursing with the universe in electric waves.

    "...the energy shot up my legs, torso, and raced up my arms and out my raised hands – pulling me skyward, the energy rushing, coursing with the universe in electric waves."

    Rita clanged her cymbals notifying us it was time for the seated meditation portion of the practice. Being cognizant to not be attached to any experiences that might arise in practice I managed to “unplug” myself from the intense energy and to come down into a seated meditation position upon a cushion. Immediately upon sitting and closing my eyes, the energy again shot from my feet up into the Muladhara chakra, where She, the female serpent exploded from her coiled position with lightning speed and bolted up through my three lower charkas unimpeded. Upon reaching my mid-upper back she pushed forward my whole upper spine, I felt the bones physically realigning forward as she forced open my chest. I could feel all the muscles in my chest tearing and expanding, accommodating Her, as She moved into the heart center, as She, Kundalini resided in my heart. This part of the experience was so intense, boarding on painful, I had to focus on my breathing, using Kaki Pranayama to just “stay”, to hold the space for what was happening.

    "...She moved into the heart center, as She, Kundalini resided in my heart."

    At this point, I know if I had wanted to stop the experience there was absolutely no way I could have. I was in Her full embrace, at Her mercy. She, Kundalini, was in complete control, “I”, a witness. She stayed here pulsing and expanding for what felt like minutes upon minutes, and then She pushed up into my constricted neck, the Vishuddha chakra. I could feel the strain of the energy wanting through, it hurt. I was on the verge of tears, but totally not in control of what was playing out. But She did make it through the bottleneck and shot upwards and straight out the Sahsarara chakra.

    "She, Kundalini, was in complete control, “I”, a witness."

    A crystalline waterfall column of silver light energy is the only way I can describe the connection of Shakti with Shiva, thick and coursing up into space, while the thousand petal crown lotus opened wider and wider, pulsating, feeling better than anything I'd ever experienced, the ultimate cosmic massage, truly. The petals opened wider and wider and throbbed as Kundalini activated the nodes of this energetic center. I stayed with the coursing waterfall of silver liquid light until I heard Rita’s clang of the cymbals. Again, I reminded myself to not be attached to experiences and I managed to disengage from what was happening and to "come back". I opened my eyes to the gorgeous brilliant morning sun shining into the yoga space. I could hardly believe what had just unfolded for I never imagined this would happen to me, I felt so "far-off" from being fully conditioned to have this type of experience, one I’d only read about in ancient yogic texts by gurus.

    "I could hardly believe what had just unfolded for I never imagined this would happen to me, I felt so "far-off" from being fully conditioned to have this type of experience..."

    I shared with my teacher what had happened and she reminded me to not be attached to nor name experiences, but to let them go and continue on. Which I did, but so much has now unfolded and without a physical human guru guiding, until I meet Sally Kempton and her teachings.  And through Sally's explanations of things I've personally experienced I've learned in-depth about how Kundalini works and how to assist this purifying Cosmic Divine Feminine energy.

    What immediately followed the awakening was a dissolution of the boarders of my physical body, I had to work to stay "present" as my body was dissolving into the reality around "me", and "I" trying to keep everything together to not draw attention to myself, which ended up being impossible. From then on in the retreat and for months and months thereafter I could no longer just sit in a peaceful meditative state, I had intense and at times painful kiryas where my arms uncontrollably shot out to the sides when seated, and what felt like an internal central piston charging and releasing up and down inside me. It was like what I imagine it’s like to be attached to a cardiac arrest machine, electrically jolted, time after time. Some moments, I felt like I was melting into my surroundings, separateness completely dissolved, but dizzying too while everyone around me went on about life, while I was undergoing a massive new energy shift.

    "What immediately followed the awakening was a dissolution of the boarders of my physical body..."

    The retreat ended while I was still trying to get a chance to with speak more in-depth with Rita about what had happened and what now to do. We decided to talk later, but it never materialized. I am forever indebted to Rita, deep bow, heart to the earth gratitude to you Rita for whatever part you played in the gift and grace of this radical transformation. To this day, I am not sure she understood what maybe she had assisted in opening up to me, which again Sally mentioned is sometimes the case with teachers, they are not aware they are transmitting awakening, nor understand what their students then under go, for awakening manifests and unfolds in each individual as She Kundalini sees fit for our spiritual growth. My opening was very Kaliesque, but for others it is a slow barely perceptible process. Kundalini purifies you in every way imaginable and unimaginable. She cures what can be cured and needs to be eradicated from you so you can potentially realize liberation. She sets you on the course of fully integrating Her into your life.

    "She sets you on the course of fully integrating Her into your life."

    Throughout the years I journeyed alone with Kundalini, before I came in contact with Sally's teachings on Kundalini, nature was my greatest support as I under went and still under go this ongoing mystical purification process which manifests in a myriad of ways. I've under gone numerous "Dark Nights of the Soul" and endless shifts as She reorganizes and leads me towards the enhanced possibility of full emancipation. If you've also had Kundalini awaken to you and are looking for support please contact me or if you would like to learn more about Kundalini please join me for a pilgrimage where we can deeply commune on Her graces.

    Kundalini is my Guru. 

    "Kundalini is my Guru."